Tat Tvam Asi

The year started out with promise regarding the second innings. A lot of that promise is still hanging around, these being early days and all. But the mysterious developments I witnessed really can take me by surprise...especially, when it was a done deal eachtime. Maybe this is the Unseen's way of testing me? But have been tested quite a few times through life....and have landed on my feet. I still will. and I still will keep hoping, doggedly...the dog inside me refuses to let go...

Like that waiter chap in a starbucks in downtown Denver once told me, ina different context tho, its not the dog in the fight but the fight in the dog...that counts. Wise words, tho not original.

I have pretty much shaped my own destiny, good or bad...with the choices I made, on impulse, usually. Like Isabel in 'portrait of a lady', I own up to my decisions and will see them through to their end. When I look back, its been a pretty solo battle...with the One Above looking on...and something good has always popped its head around the corner.

I hope for myself that by the time this year ends, I will have got what I have set out to achieve, even if in small measures. There were different expectations of their lil girl from my parents, I'm sure...bigger and better. But I also know they are proud and with me even through the path I have chosen. My man is with me through thick and thin...and my precious girl is the only redeeming part of my life today!

Heres looking at me!

Yesterday was a funny day.....the stinker I got, then my baby broke my cell. Today morning a car caught fire in the neighborhood...life.

This above all else, to thine ownself be true...

I've realized I like wandering through the crannies and underbelly of the Net-mos and visiting random blogs of people who have posted their inner thoughts, i.e. blogs that are just their diaries. We're all same in our angst somehow - Asians, Caucasians etc....I also like to drop silly comments on them and vanish into the mist, figuratively. :-))

The one that has stayed with me a lot....that has been physically with me for a long time...been with my family for more, is the dog-eared version of the Bhagavad Gita. Its simple yet profound and somehow, in a funny way, gives me strength when I need it...even without leafing thru it.

The age-old truths, the cycle of life, the essence of my Being...deep.

I know ppl have confidantes who they can lean on, tell their all to. I don't, never did. Funny now I think about it, do I miss having this appendage? Hmmm....

I know I'm rambling - you must be wondering if I'm drunk....but thats just how my mind is always....a bit like the time lapse photography thingie in docus...

Ta! then till my next visit....life will have changed a bit more.

bring you forth. Was bored of the other two. One's totally private and reticent. The other's a little more outgoing and seen. You...don't know what to make of you.

I wish you luck and many more postings. :-)

Peace.